5/25

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A wave of emotions

Seeing my Dad take a drink is still painful

He's not that same person but it still hurts to see

I look like him

I started drinking because I saw him drink

I blamed a lot of things on him and his drinking

I fucked up while he was going through it

I got fucked up almost every day while he was going through it

So maybe this is a reminder that I need to forgive him and trust him

Then there's love

I heard a voice last year that told me to cut the chord

I was holding on to it as long as I could

I knew it wasn't right

Even if all the evidence pointed to her being the one

My gut told me “No”

Deep inside I feel like that place is reserved for someone else

The hard part is that even after a year

Those “What Ifs” and thoughts creep up daily

I learned self love because of her so I thank you for that

I moved on for a reason

I feel the new one is coming soon

The real "one"

Back on the streaming life

Still on that podcast life

Living the rapper life

The life I want

The life I need

The life I know

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